How do you dare saying it's too late??

You do not have the right to mess up people's lives like that, appear and disappear when you think convenient? I don't think you have an idea of what is caused by the thought of you, let alone when you send one of those 'signs'.

Do you lie to me? What is going on? Because I would give up many things. It's been a while since I felt like this for anyone. Take the risk. Try me.

If you guess what happened today...
One more day in my life that is messed up by a dream of you.
I can´t take it anymore. I miss you... When I heard your voice in the dream, I can´t name what I felt, it was sooo good...
You kissed me. Your lips touched mine, in a way nobody ever had before. I felt like kissing you forever...
The way your strong hands touched my body, the way your eyes looked at me.
What I feel only grew stronger. If it´s just an infatuation, then okay, I can live with it... but I want it to be fullfilled. I want your body close to mine. Let´s give us a chance, please...
Don´t be insecure, don´t be afraid.
I don´t love you. But I´m madly in love.
Would you dare?

So, I´m here again.
As I smoke my cigarrete, I think of us, and what we´re not. The things I´d like to be.
I live my life based on the dream of you. The lust for you. I wish we both could be free of the strings that tie us to different lives, y´know... Just for a few moments.
When I see my reflection in the mirror, I see Amanda, a girl whose life is almost perfect. But she still needs one thing.

Do you realize that we may never discover how it would be? And I have to think about it every single day.
I miss the way you say my name. I miss the way you used to say "oh, so chic" when I was dressed for work.
I know I´m not what you find very attractive. I´m a bit of a tomboy, I have my tattoos and piercings, I´m rude sometimes... And I know you like "girly girls". And I can imagine that your family wouldn´t react so well when they saw me. And that´s just what I want. Let me, for once, be the one that your family won´t like, but the one that´ll make you happy, who will brighten up your day, who´ll turn each date into an adventure. The one with whom you´ll have the best sex of your life, because it´ll taste forbidden.
There´s still time. Not for long, I feel it, but there´s still time. I know you´re not happy. I see it in your eyes, the same way that I see the sparkles when you look at me.
C´mon, take my hand...